Friday, February 24, 2017

Up and at Em'

My entire 2016 was freaking insane. 2017 isn't shaping up to be any calmer. I got a job around October but subsequently lost it when my co-worker started acting like a fucking bitch. Interim office politics are always bullshit, but especially if somebody's fucking the boss.

So I'm looking for another job... AGAIN. I know you're not supposed to talk bad about your previous employers in an interview and I almost hate to blog it here, but hell, if I can't vent on this blog, where else can I? Tumblr is where secrets go to spread like STD's. This is personal. My past few jobs were fucking epic fails because my supervisors were idiots. I was blaming myself at first, until I realized that incompetence from a management standpoint has a trickle down effect. If you are making your boss look bad because you're a more effictive and efficient worker than they are, that USED to be  cause for a promotion. I caught this company up on 3 months of work they were behind on, in about half that time and I got fired for it. Now I know working TOO hard or TOO efficiently is not always a good thing. Well excuuuse me, adult life. I am learning more and more with every passing year as I grow older, that the principles I was taught as a child, simply do not apply. Everybody lies, everybody cheats, and bullies that grow up to be successful are now litigious bullies with lawyers.

We live in a society that puts porn with a beat on public radio and wonder why our kids are fucking at 10 and 11 years old. Where they think it's okay for a retired pornstar to teach at an elementary school but not a homosexual. It's a fine line, but not really. One of these people DOESN'T have a career of recorded sex videos that pop up when you google their name. Common sense ain't so common, or maybe it is, and people just like to act like jackasses to see how much they can get away with. Or perhaps it's more of a conformity issue. I realized people say words they don't even know the meanings to, CONSTANTLY.

Another thing I've noticed is people will explain something like "This is because of this, WHICH, is because of this" then go on to try and swap out the argument with logic that is completely irrelevant to their previous statement. For example: "This drug is created to mitigate the symptoms of Restless Leg syndrome, which, can keep you up at night" side effects may include severe nausea, vomiting, stroke, heart attack, blood-clots, grand-mal seizures, and death.  But you see what I did there? This drug is created to stop your legs from moving while you're falling asleep, so REALLY its to put you to sleep without you kicking all the pillows and your spouse off the bed. But you cant run a 30 second ad on pharmaceutical samples if you're being honest. And honestly, who hasn't kicked the fucking covers off or had a restless night because shit was on their mind (AND THAT'S THE REAL REASON, NOT BECAUSE MY FUCKING LEGS ARE RESTLESS) I'm not saying RLS isn't a real thing (yes I am) but also that little bait and switch was a very MILD, BUT SUBTLE example. People do this all the time, especially in arguments.

"It doesn't matter" gets thrown around a lot and a lot of people don't know the proper response to this, because it's the same as cutting a person off. It's dismissive. If it didn't matter an argument would not be had, but AGAIN  this is behavior that people just emulate without knowing WHY. Because they're so attached to their own egos they fail to see that what you say and do and justify the right to believe in is what essentially defines "you". So when a person doesn't actually KNOW themself, they feel innately inferior to anyone who does, and that's when they feel the need to justify their ego, even if that means defending ignorance. *coughcough* atheists *coughcough*. The millenial generation is devolving. Have you all seen this?

There's a lot of dumb shit that would render plenty of people speechless, just floating around on the internet. Some of it's funny, some of it's scandalous, and some of it is actually pretty decent creative content. But THIS is a brain shart. It was a brain fart that somebody tried to silently pass as gas that accidentally sprayed a little more than a skidmark down their medula oblongata. No I mean it. I'm not gonna be that guy to say "kill yourself" but this video made me realize that sometimes you can just NOT create time wasting, mindless, retarded, shit and the world will actually be better off. This video, to me, represents mindlessness at it's peak. It is the total summation of all the MOST asinine culture that  the internet has  to offer to date. If I could show this video to Socrates I think he'd look at me confused at first, then slap me for wasting 30 seconds of his precious life with THAT. The video itself is not  the problem, it's what it represents: how idiotic we've become as a people to be entertained by something like this.

Insane is the new normal.

I got my first ticket recently. $175.00 for No proof of insurance. Nevermind the fact that I got pulled over for not having my headlights on, while there was still daylight OR that i was actually at my destination when I got pulled over. None of it matters. I can't pay that shit. I have 0 income, and now I got a court date to match. I hope they don't throw me in jail over this bullshit, and SOMEHOW now the fine is $364.00. How'd that happen? Well I'd pay it if I had it, but I don't, so what will become of me? I'm hoping for community service, because I'd actually enjoy it.

On a brighter note, after 6 months down, my PC is back up and running all shiny and new. I love my baby :). I have some new projects I'm working on, coming down the pipeline, soon. But in the meantime in-between time, I've just been juggling trying to get back on my feet, financially, while dealing with excess bullshit like tickets that I can't pay. I know I sound like someone suffeing from Affluenza when I say "You can go shove that ticket and fine up your ass, because I have 0 income and, disrespectfully,  an allotment of $360.00 to the state for me getting to my destination safely is very low on my list of priorities in the interest of self preservation."

I mean what the fuck, man? Anyway, I haven't done a whole lot in the way of art, I've been too pre-occupied with everything else, but I did manage to do a few test renders that turned out kinda nice once I re-installed Poser on my brand-spanking new sweet ass custom-built baby *muah*

Sorry I gotta put these feelings somewhere. Because I feel like I'm living in some wacky ass parody of a parody of  humanity and I'm the only one who seems to see how fucking insane this shit is, but instead of punchlines with a studio audience to laugh, it's just sad because it's real, and not an actual joke.

Friday, September 16, 2016

Me Myself and I

A ittle shameless self promotion never hurt anybody...>.>


Wednesday, September 7, 2016

The French Quarter

I'm working on a new project. So busy busy busy. This was a quickie and went pretty quickly for how good it looks. I'm proud of it. :)

Sunday, September 4, 2016


I am proud to release my first novel in ebook format. Tell your friends, tell your neighbors! Get your copy today!

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Saturday, September 3, 2016

Roxy Speedpaint

It actually took longer than a speedpaint should allow, but thats because I was being a perfectionist about it. Because I just coundnt get the face right. Ugh.

Monday, August 29, 2016

Amethyst Aridi

Whenever I'm fed up with working on one project, drawing Niyati or Nina is always a welcome break. There was another variation to this dress's colors, but ya'll know I can get carried away. This was a quickie anyway. I used plenty of stock to save time. Not because I'm lazy, but because I wanted it to look like I worked hard on it without spending 8+ hours, like I'm prone to doing, especially since this was just to break away from the monotonous job of editing and re-editing The Renegades.

I like it :) and it definitely reminds me of  this one, I did years ago... which I'm surprised I never posted to this blog, but now that I think about it, that was because I completed it my very LAST semester of college and I began maintaining this blog right after I graduated. Wow. Happy 8 year Sketchblog anniversary to me!

(P.S. 2/24/17) You know, I think when I created Niyati, my inspiration was definitely Esmeralda, from The Hunchback of Notre Dame. But I also can see, now, Rita Moreno in all her gorgeous, skirt  sashaying, West Side Story glory in her spirit. I wanted to BE Anita when I was little. She had this proud glow about her that made her so gorgeous and in this picture I think I definitely subconsciously channeled it into Niyati.

Saturday, August 6, 2016

New Babylon, MMDLI

WHOO! Man this was a challenge. I've always been really so bad with cityscapes. It's  one thing to draw people, but buildings and lighting over landscapes takes on different properties. Anyway this is gonna be the cover for The Renegades which is projected to be published and released in e-book format by Labor day!!!

 I don't think it's quite finished yet, but I dunno... its pretty close. This is supposed to be the view of the city from Caduceon when Roxy first wakes up and sees it from the balcony. That being said, I wanted to add the balcony probably at the bottom of the picture with her standing with her back facing the viewer. But so far, I'm satisfied with it :) Yey for getting out of my comfort zone!

I made a page on Legendaery with all the character descriptions and in the meantime I'm working editing and made a kickstarter for some funds to print actual paperback books! What fun!

Friday, July 29, 2016


I painted my Danish friend whose hair is not even exaggerated in this picture. Seriously, her hair is awesome.

Monday, July 25, 2016

SCAD throwbacks

 While cleaning out my hdd I found some old class projects circa 2007-08 that I completely forgot about...and they're not that bad :), I mean, I think I've definitely improved, but my style was coming along nicely at that time, if I do say so myself.

Friday, July 15, 2016

Insignia Fall Collection


Narrowed down...  -_-;

I like to see 14 years  over 4 frames. Keeps me inspired!