My Muse

So let me kinda, sorta try to explain... I've been really uninspired for a while. You can see that if you just look at 2013's archive. You can't make inspiration happen, it just does, and I would get a spurt once in a blue moon. HOWEVER, I am coming to realize that apparently I have to feel "emotions and shit" to be inspired because all this production that has taken place since around late November can be traced back to a single source. I was perfectly content and happy before then and something happened that ruffled my feathers. Not only this, but looking in the archive at last year, I noticed a similar surge of sketches happened right after a previous encounter with the same person.

I wasn't fully aware of what it meant until this drawing occurred. It was kicking the shit out of my mind to come out. I literally could not focus. I have other shit I specifically need to be working on but I couldn't continue until I got this out.

Picture's pretty self explanatory without the need of going into detail. Even in my utter dissatisfaction with the ambivalent nature of our "friendship", I can legitimately credit this person as my muse. I still don't fully understand what it is that is reflected in him that I desire, but the drawing power is strong enough that he's my proverbial carrot on a stick; always just out-of-fucking-reach . *sigh*

Sinking Fast

Charlie did a bad thing.

The Holes of My Sweater

 

Onward!

Charlie too

A slight little redesign of Charlie, first introduced here. Working on some style frames. I like this dress better, it's less frilly and a little more bad-ass.

Sweater Weather

Obviously inspired by the song. It completely takes me back to LA. I see a sunset behind silhouettes of palm trees and an amber glare casting a vivid spectrum of colors across the sky that only smog can produce. It's Tumblr come to life. Initially when I started sketching this I felt such a strong sense of nostalgia of LA and also being in love- it was almost kind of sad, because I realized I'll never be able to love fearlessly like that again, which is obviously just part of growing up. But the song embodies, just that: Passionate, fearless, euphoric and reckless young love.

Purification by Fire

Trying to sketch fast. I like the color, but that's about it. I saw it in a dream.

The Beaten Path

Boring, just like the title. But it was very good practice, I learned a lot. So I'm gonna be working on more of these because honestly, all I need to do is practice. and by the looks of it, I have a LONG way to go. Onward!

Oily

Quick sketch.

Hiatus Kaiyote

You guys and Flying Lotus helped lead me to the middle path. I am forever grateful!

I had an AMAZING TIME tonight at the Hiatus Kaiyote Concert. Right in the middle of the Ocelot song, I busted out the poster I made while I sang along, showing it to the band and crowd and Nai Palm was so excited she pulled me up on stage to join her! "Me?!" I looked surprised pointing to myself. She reached for me with a giddy smile on her face. So I went up. SO nervous! I showed my poster to the audience as I grooved to the beat of my favorite song and I hugged her before getting back down, obviously not wanting the attention, lol. I blew her a kiss and she bowed to me and I to her. SO much love! I was so happy that she liked it as much as she did, I could tell she was touched. I gave it to her, but in all honestly it was for all of them because the music is a collaborative effort and they're all so amazing. When I was leaving I managed to buy a poster and get an autograph from Perrin and Nai Palm, but Paul was so far away as I waded in the chaotic line that was a sea of fans, and I didn't even see Simon anywhere.

I do regret that I didn't get all their autographs :\. But I did get another picture with Nai Palm and I even got to ask her about the tattoo on the corner of her mouth. She said she had a pet crow that scratched her( I think?), she got the tattoo to remember her by.

 I didn't realize it at first, and most of Hiatus Kaiyote's lyrics didn't make sense to me until more recently but I can feel it that Nai Palm is definitely a Buddhist. I guess the signs were always there, but I can see them more clearly now.

 "Lace skull that once hung low, on its humble throne. I woke, I rose"

Yeah, I get it now. I'm so happy! A million thanks for gracing DC with your wonderful presence once again, you guys made my night, and I hope I returned the favor!

Dot, Dot, Dot Ocelot

I attempted to make an ocelot a few months back and it didn't turn out like I wanted. So I did it again because Hiatus Kaiyote is coming to DC this Friday and you KNOW I got a ticket ^_^ I'm gonna print a poster and give it to them at the show :D. I'm proud of this one so its guud. LOL