It will be okay

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I have to believe that. I haven't been okay in a very long time...

Drawing Itachi has been good for meditation... and I am getting better at...well...everything... except being lonely and unemployed.  ;_;

I feel like the world is against me... I'm so tired of struggling just to live independently and simply. Somebody fucking save me, please.

That look says it all
But still...

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Anonymous said…
Hey, are you good? Art can be excellent therapy, but it can only alleviate so much. if you need help, perhaps you should reach out to someone, like a professional. I hope whatever is bothering you gets resolved.
October 27, 2017 at 4:05 AM
Maharani said…
Thanks for that. Therapy is expensive and I don't trust therapists, because I understand my psyche better than a stranger ever could and they are pill pushers. And I don't have any family to turn to,(they are most of the reason why I'm fucked up anyway). I don't really know what else to do except to just hope for the best and keep working toward my goals since I have no choice... I feel better today, but my depression is objective, so unless a therapist can offer me a job, talking won't resolve anything.
October 27, 2017 at 10:49 AM
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